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In this week’s edition:

• The pressure to know

• When pain interrupts certainty

• Learning to live with questions

I spent years collecting degrees, licenses, and certifications.

Each time, I hoped I would find that one big answer to it all.

Instead, I became increasingly aware of how little I actually knew.

Talk to people with PhDs and most of them will tell you the same thing: the more they learned, the more they realized how much they didn't know.

That realization can be disappointing and humbling.

It can also be freeing.

The pressure to know

Many of us grew up believing we needed an answer for everything.

In some families, being smart was how you earned approval.

In others, being wrong was shamed or punished.

Sometimes overtly, sometimes subtly.

We learned to explain, defend, analyze, and solve.

Looking back, I don't think I was chasing knowledge as much as certainty.

Certainty removes fear…temporarily.

But life doesn't always cooperate.

Research suggests that much of what drives us happens outside our conscious awareness.

We like to think we're making thoughtful decisions while old fears, habits, and beliefs quietly pull the strings.

Eventually, life has a way of exposing the limits of our certainty.

A relationship falls apart.

A career ends.

An addiction takes over.

A loss changes everything.

The answers that always worked don't seem to work anymore.

For some of us, that's the beginning of something important.

When pain interrupts certainty

I've heard people in recovery say that surrender is the last thing we try.

That certainly fit me.

I was always looking for the right book, another insight, another explanation.

Eventually, the pain became louder than my need to have everything figured out.

One of my wise-ass recovery buddies likes to say, "I wish you a lot of pain, my friend."

The first time I heard it, I wasn’t sure what he meant.

But now I understand.

Avoiding pain has never helped me grow.

Pain has changed my life for the better…more than success ever has.

It has shown me where I was pretending.

It has shown me where I was exhausted.

It has shown me what I needed to let go.

Learning to live with questions

Recovery has taught me to become curious instead of certain.

Fear, grief, shame, and anger all have something to say if we're willing to stay with them long enough.

The intellect wants to explain them.

But the body wants to experience them.

Emotions are our experience of being alive.

It takes practice and support, but over time, something softens.

There is less urgency to prove, defend, or convince.

It’s a much more peaceful existence.

And we become much better students of this mysterious life.

I’d love to hear your thoughts. Just hit reply.

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Letting go,

Bob

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